| | There are some days that are just so long and
drawn out that you can't take it. You begin to think about yourself, and
question how other people see you as a person.
I have a habit of going through life with just enough to get by. It's how I've
always done it. In a way, it's a fairly bad habit to have. A lot of the time I
seem to think little of myself, but then again I've never been one to think
otherwise, or even be told otherwise. I've been through a lot, and don't care
about most things because I'm used to being on my own with little to work with.
Pain, both emotional and physical has become something I'm fairly well immune
to.
Is it bad to say that you're immune to pain? Ya,
probably.
For the longest time, my best friend was my pet ferret, I was ignored by most,
and commonly yelled at by my folks. I got into university and things changed a
lot; in a way, even in my third and last year, I'm not used to it. Living on my
own was the best thing that ever happened to me. I could do what I wanted to do
without being judged by my family. I made new friends, started getting along
with other people easier, and life in Toronto was the greatest. But all the
while there were my folks, hanging over my shoulder, calling me and checking in
on me. Nothing I did was ever good enough for them (and frankly nothing I do
NOW is ever good enough). Though I guess I can thank my sister, the engaged,
unemployed Civil Engineer for that part.
God damn she was an over-achiever.
So here I am, one year away from graduating and
becoming a graphic designer. My life has turned around so much, but my bad
habits still remain. I'm working on that too, if only for one person out there.
In a way, it's both frightening, and rather amusing at the same time. I always
thought I would die before I hit twenty.
Well, there's still the chance I die AT age twenty
>_>
Though that would suck, I like living now <_<
Anyways, now that that's over (and I feel MUCH better
now that that's off my chest), I have stuffs to do.
Yay for being totally and utterly vague!
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