Shaldra's Xanga

sigh

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 20:23:04 GMT

There are some days that are just so long and drawn out that you can't take it. You begin to think about yourself, and question how other people see you as a person.

I have a habit of going through life with just enough to get by. It's how I've always done it. In a way, it's a fairly bad habit to have. A lot of the time I seem to think little of myself, but then again I've never been one to think otherwise, or even be told otherwise. I've been through a lot, and don't care about most things because I'm used to being on my own with little to work with. Pain, both emotional and physical has become something I'm fairly well immune to.

Is it bad to say that you're immune to pain? Ya, probably.

For the longest time, my best friend was my pet ferret, I was ignored by most, and commonly yelled at by my folks. I got into university and things changed a lot; in a way, even in my third and last year, I'm not used to it. Living on my own was the best thing that ever happened to me. I could do what I wanted to do without being judged by my family. I made new friends, started getting along with other people easier, and life in Toronto was the greatest. But all the while there were my folks, hanging over my shoulder, calling me and checking in on me. Nothing I did was ever good enough for them (and frankly nothing I do NOW is ever good enough). Though I guess I can thank my sister, the engaged, unemployed Civil Engineer for that part.

God damn she was an over-achiever.

So here I am, one year away from graduating and becoming a graphic designer. My life has turned around so much, but my bad habits still remain. I'm working on that too, if only for one person out there. In a way, it's both frightening, and rather amusing at the same time. I always thought I would die before I hit twenty.

Well, there's still the chance I die AT age twenty >_>
Though that would suck, I like living now <_<

Anyways, now that that's over (and I feel MUCH better now that that's off my chest), I have stuffs to do.

Yay for being totally and utterly vague!

WTF I'm back

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 22:29:23 GMT

... yes, the big question now comes.
WHY am I back after nearly 2 years of ignoring this place.
I blaim Xadium. I really do.
He has linked this little corner of nothing to his super popular site "Suburban Senshi", causing me to realise OH SHI PEOPLE MAY COME AND VISIT.
So I guess I should update.
Ya.
God dammit.
Hate you Xadium. h8 u~~~
Making me work. I don't have time to keep this updated regularly, I have stuff to do and a job.

Yes, I have a job, at GM no less. I'm designing cars (or at least helping with such things, for the summer till school starts). It's a cool job, but like all jobs, takes up a lot of my time. So I guess I can just work this in with random yellings! It's not like I don't do that anyways!

Yay!

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 21:34:10 GMT

*Steps needed*

Storyline (complete)

Sketching (107 of 107 pages, WOHOO! I'M FUCKING DONE!!)

Inking (56 of 107 pages)

Text (4 of 107 pages)

Cover (complete)

As you can see, I'm working quite well! ^_^ That means more time for me and the chatbox! ^__^ The deadline has also been extended to mid December, so that makes it all the better! But now I'm lost on a lot of other things ! Oh well, it happens!

See ya around! Mrawrrr!

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 20:09:30 GMT

I said I wasn't going to be on, but this has to be said.

"Ack! I'm in school! I'm in hell! Same thing!" Evangeline - Negima!

This could not have been closer to my day. My school was hit by some freak setting fires twice. The first time wasn't all that bad, it was in the guys washroom. I didn't mind that one all to much, it was just near my locker and my art room. It truly wasn't bad, except for the fact that I was coughing up smoke till lunch.

The second was worse. I had phys.ed last, and a couple of my friends have it with a different sensei in the gym beside. It wasn't known, till the gyms started filling with smoke. This, I am not exaggerating. I myself can't stand smoke, and seeing as the room was just about filled with it, I almost collapsed.

Due to this fact, we have been put on high alert, no one leaves class until it's finished, no one can hang out in the halls during lunch or spare periods. Just a moment as I rant out my rage...

FUCKING ASSHOLES! I CAN'T STAND THEM! THEY TOOK AWAY MY FREE TIME BECUASE THEY DECIDED TO BE UTTER IDIOTS! I SERIOUSLY HOPE THEY GET CAUGHT AND DELT WITH!!

Thank you. Now, one final note. One of my friends -we both have art class together- saw the guy who did the first one in the guys bathroom. She couldn't identify the person, but we have ha guess to who it is now. (thank god.) I seriously hope this is over soon, I don't like police scanning the hallways.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 01:41:42 GMT

***PLEASE READ!***

***Updated*** October 26, 2004

I won't be on Suburban Senshi for a while, my school work is begining to catch up on me and I must get my art project finished by November 23. I am no where near completion currently, and must get it done or risk failing my art class. Due to this fact, I have barred myself from the internet until finished my manga, using computer only for details on my work.

*Steps needed*

Storyline (complete)

Sketching (79 of 107 pages)

Inking ( 17 of 107 pages)

Text

Cover (complete)

I am working extrememly hard on this project, for my art teacher is collecting the best ones to be reviewed for publishing. This is very important to me, and I need the new income. I am sorry for this, and I hope to be back soon.

For now, my character is considered to be on an extended "vacation" on Expel, being called away for business purposes.

Thank you to anyone who reads this, and please pass it on to others in the chat who ask questions. I do this for reasons of my own, the chatbox has nothing to do with my delay with my work. Again, I will be back.

~Stephanie (Shaldra Marrianna)~

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 14:57:31 GMT

The sound of hooves beating the ground echoed through the open fields of Salva, a group of four charged toward the city of Cross, each of them seeming very prepared for what was ahead, though they had NO idea what the problem was. "Hey, Marrianna..." spoke one of the riders; a man dressed in dark blue armor, with a pair of dragons fused to his back. A headband kept back his long brown hair, and a pair of short sword crossed over his shoulders. "... Do we really know what we're getting into?"

The felpool girl looked back for only a moment at the Heraltic Swordsman, then concentrated once more on guiding her horse across the open grass. "I don't know Ashton, why are you asking me anyways? Dias got asked to do this, not me. We just got dragged along for the ride." Shaldra tugged on the reins, the horse slowed a bit and trotted up beside the Tetragene woman. "Opera, does Dias actually *know* where he's going? He was never the best with directions..."

The blond haired woman turned to look at Shaldra, adjusting the large machine gun on her back. "I say we just go with it, I mean, it may be fun in the end." Opera smiled at her own words, looking toward the man in front of her, who no matter how well he seemed to know where he was going, was lost. Shaldra simply rolled her eyes and continued on her way with the others.

********

It was about an hour later, Ashton looked at their surroundings. "I think we're in the wrong place..."

"No, you think? I didn't notice because of all the smoke in the air!" Shaldra's and Opera's voices rang out at the same time, though their figures where a blur. "That's it! I'm going to stop Dias!" Opera kicked the horse she rode lightly, "Hiya!" and went up beside Dias.

The blue haired swordsman turned his head only a fraction. "What do you want, Opera?"

"Dias, if you haven't noticed yet, we are LOST! Now let's get out of here before we meet up with monsters!"

Shaldra's ears perked up, she stopped her horses movements, and looked around carefully. "Ashton, Opera, Dias, hold up a bit, I think I remember this place..." The three rushed over to her, watching the felpool carefully.

"Remember back when the Sorcery Globe was a problem, way back when? Well, that forest you went through, the one Rena showed me a while ago, I think we're near it." Shaldra gulped slightly, reached back and took her sword into her hand.

Ashton's eyes widened, the two dragons on his back, Gyoro and Ururun, look over for a moment. First, Gyoro spoke, Ashton's green eyes now red. "Marrianna, if what you speak is true, then we may be meeting up with some remaining creatures from then." Ururun was next, Ashton's eyes became blue. "If so, we don't know how powerful they are now, we have to stay on our guard. For all we know about this place, some of those robotic creatures could still be lurking about."

Opera and Dias nodded quietly, Dias took his long sword into his hand, Opera reached for her gun. A rustling from the bushes around them startled their horses, knocking the riders off; the horses ran off into the distance. Ashton's eyes went back to the normal green, and he rapidly reached for his short swords. "Shit, this is not good..."

*To be Continued*

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 12:09:35 GMT

The first of my story arc, finally I stopped being lazy and did it. It's not really much, but this will be all the info from Expel that you don't get in the chat box. This will make it much easier for me. ^_^

Oh, and a note. A lot of terms I use are from Star Ocean EX and Blue Sphere, so I will put down the meanings after the story arc part, for your reference.

"I can't believe I broke another sword!" Shaldra screamed at the top of her lungs, looking rather annoyed as she collected the few pieces from her old sword that she could work into her new one. She ripped up grass with her claws and continued to look, the Felpool utterly annoyed at herself.

"Uhh, Marrianna, calm down, breaking your sword is nothing new for you in truth..." A tall blond haired Tetragene spoke, and she gently put a hand on Shaldra's shoulder. "Now common, we'll just head to Arlia and we can get you a new sword, alright?"

Shaldra looked up. "Just a moment, I need to get my Xine feather from my old sword before we go." then she continued to rummage through the broken pieces.

"What a girl..." A blue haired swordsman spoke. "Opera, I'm going to go ahead." he turned, and walked off, cape swirling around his armor heroically Opera herself almost gagged.

"Dias is such a glory hog." she mumbled as Shaldra stood up.

"Let's get to Arlia then, we could probably beat him there." the Felpool chucked, then kicked up her heals and ran, the Tetragene right on her tail.

*****

Felpool: the refrence to a neko-person on Expel

Tetragene: Tall, commonly blond haired people with a third eye on their forhead, their race is much more advanced then Expellan's, so it's not uncommon to see them carrying around guns and communicators

Xine: The king of demons, a giant white bird who lives on the peak of Minos Mountain

Dias & Opera: Two of your party members in the game, and close friends of Marrianna, they commonly go on adventures together

Arlia: A small village just outside of Shingo Forest, the home of Rena

*****

Well, there we go, the first of my story arcs. It isn't much, but it gets ya through the chat. ^_^

Monday, October 04, 2004

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 21:57:48 GMT

Mrawrrrr! ^_^ I actually got so bored that I did this! Wait, that makes no sence... oh well. I'm kind'a going to be using this for a bit of backstory, since I don't commonly rant. I take out my rage more physically then mentally, by which I mean I beat the shit out of the one who pisses me off. Okay, I can't do that to people who annoy me on-line, but that I just brush off, after all, it is just on-line.

Well, anyways, I guess I'm down to zero for topic, so I'll be posting some backstory later.